Greetings faithful followers!
I want to say I am sorry for kind of disappearing for a month. I have been going through some crazy personal stuff and figured I should keep my highly emotional writing to my physical journal where it can stay hidden for a very very long time. 😉
Now, onto the fun stuff. As I mentioned I have been going through some stuff ( I know that that is painfully vague and I am sorry about that) and that was a big reason why I chose to do what I am calling my social media detox. I do want to make something clear though, I have always loved facebook and instagram. I was never one of those people that bitched about how terrible it was or what a waste of time it was. I really did always like it. And I will probably like it still when I go back to it. But I found myself starting to feel really fake though. I just was at a pretty low point and felt ridiculously in-genuine posting stuff that made it seem like I was super happy and loving life. It just didn’t feel right. On top of that, when you are going through a rough period you really don’t need to be comparing your life to other people’s overly positive representations of theirs. It’s hard enough to do when you are in a really good place in your life. It’s just unhealthy for your mental state. Well, it was for me at least. So, there you go. That’s the run down of why I chose to break up with social media for a while.
Next order of business: how the past 4 weeks have gone without it. It has been really good and enlightening to be honest. It has almost been a month and I have finally stopped having the urge to open up a new tab and click facebook. I had some major withdrawals for a few days. It made me realize how TRULY addicting it is. It is so fascinating to me how humans can get so entranced by looking into other people’s lives. I still don’t really know why it is so easy and enjoyable, but the fact that I am realizing it, is enough for me right now.
This month has also made me realize how much time I did waste on it. I realized I would easily blow through three hours just going down the rabbit hole of profile after profile. I didn’t see that until I quit it and realized how much I could get done in those three hours! I really never knew how much I depended on it as an escape from boredom. That is what scares me, is that I just got so stagnate in being okay with spending so much time on it that I could have been doing other things. I have read 3 books since I gave social media up. That makes me so much more happy than scrolling through profiles of people I barely know anymore. I don’t miss seeing what is going on in the people I love’s lives because I use this thing called a telephone.. I actually think it has been better for my relationships because not seeing everything my friends and family post on facebook makes me more curious about how they are doing and it makes me ask them myself instead of just assuming they are fine because they posted a cute photo of themselves. I think it is safe to say that overall my social detox has been a really good thing for me. I am going to keep away from it for a while. I do want to come back one day.. But I am just weary of relapsing into full on addiction. When I do come back I want to be ready to set boundaries for myself that allow me to continue the healthy way I have been living without it. 🙂